Reasons

Why do I want to even consider bariatric surgery???  I have many, many reasons:

1.  I am unhealthy and my health is declining rapidly.  I'm only 43...but I feel like I'm 73. 
2. I am in constant pain with my feet/ankles and legs....they were never meant to carry this much weight.  It is getting to the point where it just hurts to walk.
3. I can't walk up a single flight of stairs without gasping for breath like a fish out of water. 
4.  I hate wearing my CPAP.
5.  I have high blood pressure and high cholesterol.
6.  My kidneys can't handle this much weight either.
7.  My heart beat is irregular....and it's probably because I'm so big.
8.  I am taking medication for depression....and my depression is directly linked to how big I am.
9.  I have no clothes that fit any more.  Even my "fat" clothes are getting too small.
10.  I can't wear pretty shoes because my feet hurt too badly.
11. I can't wear skirts because my legs are too heavy.
12.  I have to go to the "big-girl" store to buy bras. In a size that bras shouldn't come in.
13.  All my shirts look like Omar the Tent maker made them.
14.  It's hard to be professional as a nurse and educate your patients on nutrition and health when they look at you and you KNOW they're thinking, "Yeah.  But look at YOU!"
15.  My friends young daughter said while pointing at me, "WOW! Mom!  She is so fat!" 
16.  I am ashamed of how I look....so much so that I limit my activities in public because I'm embarrassed to be seen like this.
17.  I don't feel sexually attractive. 
18.  I have to request the seat-belt extender on an airplane...and if I ever get seated in the middle seat...I have to hug my arms across my body the entire flight so that I can fit in my own seat.  I've seen seat-mates roll their eyes when they saw that they were sitting beside me.  Ouch.
19.  I can't fit into rides at the amusement park.
20.  I can't sit in our own lawn chair....it has a weight limit of 275 pounds.
21.  I can't go horseback riding.  Wouldn't be fair to the horse.
22.  I have to be careful where I sit at other people's houses....and pray for a sturdy chair.
23.  I cringe when someone wants to take my picture.  I HATE seeing how I look in a photograph.
24.  I actually take showers in the dark...so that I don't even have to see my naked body myself. 
25.  I will NOT be naked in front of my husband.
26.  I have trouble painting my own toenails....or tying my own shoes. 
27.  It takes 2-3 tries to get up from a seated position.
28.  It's almost impossible to get in/out of my husband's small sports car.
29.  I can't keep up with my husband when we go somewhere.  I get tired so quickly and he becomes frustrated with my limitations.
30.  I haven't worn a swimsuit in public in about 5+ years.
31.  I sometimes don't want to even go to church because I feel like I look so awful and huge.
32.  I'm afraid I embarrass my family because of my size.
33.  I'm embarrassed to eat in front of other people.....I feel like they are judging me and what I eat.
34.  I have upset stomach a lot....probably from not eating healthy foods.
35.  My wedding ring is getting too small.
36.  I can't wear a "regular size" watch band. I had to order an extra large one.
37.  I can't buy clothes at regular stores......unless they have a Plus Size department.
38.  I can't wear boots.  My legs won't fit into them.
39.  I have stretch Marks all OVER my body.
40.  I get a heat rash from being fat.
41.  I can't wear shorts in public...no way am I going to show my legs.
42.  I can't wear sleeveless shirts/dresses....my arms are too big.
43.  I take 8 prescription medications...and that is EXPENSIVE!!
44.  I am terrified of becoming a Diabetic.
45.  I'm afraid I will become one of those huge fat women who are confined to their house....I keep having images of the movie, "What's Eating Gilbert Grape."
46.  I have stress incontinence. (If Whoppi can admit it, so can I!!)   It has to be the weight on my bladder that makes it so bad.
47.  I have tried every "diet" out there....at least twice each.  And I have failed and failed and failed.  I'm terrified of failing again.
48.  I want something permanent....I want there to be "no turning back!" I never want to be like this again.
49.  I believe gluttony is a sin.  And I can't stop sinning. I've repented a gazillion times....but still turn back to it.  I'm desperate for help.
50.  I want another chance.  A Do-Over....and I want to get it right this time.